Flip Flop

I am 30 years old and still flip flop on what I want to do for a career. That was ok when I was a mere lad, but now that I will be attending school soon I really need to get it together. It has always been between an accountant or an elementary school art teacher. Recently, with the economy, I leaned closer to accounting. I love accounting and numbers. Not to toot my own horn, but I am pretty good at it, but...do I really want to close myself up in an office? When I moved to Denver, I was so excited to get an education in art. And then slowly this started to fade away because I wanted to make more money. I have to say, I am a little ashamed of myself for letting the lack of money change me. I have never allowed money to play a role in my life and I do not believe I will let it now. I certainly am not making a definite decision, here on my blog, but I guess I just want to say that the wheels are turning for me again. There is a reason that I want to teach children and that goes far beyond anything that I will ever be able to buy. I had a meeting today with my company and the CEO gave a speech that was inspiring about a Revolution. I loved the way he so passionately talked about his life and his company and his work. I do not love numbers or money. I love children and education and art. This is who I am and I can not run from it nor cover it up. I want to passionately chase my dream and be able to pass that passion on to my children. Honesty towards myself will win this day.